Some thoughts... I've been on staff since 1998.... I don't
remember a group of students so willing to come out of the chute running full
speed like this class did...
The first small group I sat with was warmed up before we
started... I was assigned to another group later that night and was
disappointed to be leaving the 1st group even tho we had been together for
maybe 1/2 hour....
I struggled with saying goodbye to groups, even as they were
being formed... I felt so connected...especially with the public defenders and
young solos who are out on their own and alone,
like i was in 1973.... I was immediately proud to know them and worried
about the difficulties ahead that they will face in their professional lives..... Some that
they can't imagine yet.... I'm feeling very parental and protective of these
young warriors..i guess my age is showing
in mysterious ways....
I was beginning to think I would not experience a
"tlc" moment in small group, but sure enough, in the last small group
in the rec room, Connie and I watched a student become a talking cement
ramp.....the student transformation was quite remarkable, as it usually
is...and was appreciated by all of those in the group....they got it" and
i was fulfilled....then the fun of the Dubois rodeo and a tlc team beating the
"cowboys" at their own game was the cherry on top....saying good bye
and leaving thunderhead was especially difficult for me this time.. I sometimes
feel that my "in the moment" experiences might never be repeated.... I wonder if I'll
ever be back to thunderhead....or see my good friends ever again....or meet a
new class, or participate in a large or small group...or if I will ever
again make my moose call in the big barn
............when i got home i thought of the July 2012 class every day.....wondered
how they were doing.....how much they were learning, laughing, crying, living.....
I wanted to fly back out for graduation and think i would have except that my
family became and still is the subject
of a credible threat by an angry, heavily armed, psychotic individual .......needless to say, I'm staying close to
family and home..........
Finally, I need to say that
on my last day, when we all gathered in the big barn to say good bye, I
experienced a feeling like I've never experienced in my entire life of 65
years.... I was the last staff member to be called.... I was at the end of the
line and when Jim introduced..."Paulie
d'................the most wonderful thing happened... The entire class
spontaneously made low, harmonious moose
calls to me............it was amazing... I can only describe the feeling as
like I was being recognized and honored
by an entire herd of moose....they were my moose family....and they were
showing me their approval....i was being verified and they were saying goodbye in their moose
way....i was touched like I had never been touched before... I want to thank
the entire class for bestowing that honor upon me.... I'll never forget that
moment....
For the finish... I hope to make it back ,meet new warriors
and visit with old ones....
Pdumas
Moosecaller
TlC 95"